lost

I'm so scared. it's cold over here without you, and dark. I'm not- can't you see this distance between us? it looks like I could just step over to the other side but in reality I'm shouting all of this at you, we're so far apart.

hellooooo over there.

but you can hear me, that's a plus, right? you're not here. stop saying that. I'm alone in a big empty space, shouting to your figure in the distance. I don't know where I am. it's just- it's really fucking freezing.

ow. did I fall? my knees hurt. my stomach hurts. what time is it? there aren't any clocks here. I wish I had a blanket. I wish you- I don't know how to get back. it's funny, I can almost feel you holding my hand. but that's impossible, right? you're not here.

guide me back? I don't know if you can. you don't have to try, it's- okay. okayokay, I'll try.

I can't squeeze your hand, you're not here. but I feel warmer. does that mean it's working? am I getting closer? yeah, maybe I am. I can see you more clearly now, you're right next to me, smiling.

no, you're not, you're miles and miles and miles away and I'm just seeing your silhouette. I'm- I'm not moving, you're moving. please come back.

helloooo?

wake me up. tell me how to get back. tell me it's okay to eat again. come here and sit with me. I don't know what to do.