you care? ...oh. this is really awkward.
because I was under the impression that- well, that you didn't. oh. ohohoh.
then all those times that I yelled at you? oh. I must have hurt your feelings. a lot. shit. like when I told you you could never help me, because you would never understand? I- I didn't know that I made you cry. I didn't mean to, I just thought-
and all those times when you tried to stop me from- and every time I did anyway- oh, that must have really gotten to you. I didn't mean to, I just- it's about me, right? I'm on my own, right?
but you care. oh. I'm not alone. I affect people when I- oh. OH. how was I supposed to know?
because you told me so. because you asked me to stop. because you cried. because I always felt guilty.
oh.
because you do understand. because you tried to help. oh.
but I didn't do any of those things for you, did I? and I care about you more than anything. what does that make me?
This is probably my favorite on all of the ones that I've read (and this is completely not the only one I've read...).
ReplyDeleteI like it because the lack of proper capitalization gives me the physical sense that you don't care.
Plus, I think with the lack of capitalization the writing is more approachable. Less commitment to grammar means less commitment to the story, so its more easy to just casually read (its like body language in writing)