sometimes my head is too full for my heart to take it anymore. I don't know how to separate the empathy from the actual sadness, my feelings from my feelings for other people.
and my internal monologue is just left with a lot of screaming. all day, until I go to sleep,
"AHHHHHHHyouarenotgoodenoughAHHHHHHHHHnobodycanhelpyouAHHHHHHHHHHHwhothefuckcaresaboutyouAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"
and I don't know which part of me is the bad side. I don't know how to tell my entire being to just STOP FUCKING YELLING ALREADY, except for one way. and I'm too much of a coward.
when I go to sleep, it doesn't stop, it just forms coherent ideas. You. Are. Not. Good. Enough. I don't know how to sleep anymore.
maybe if I could yell all this out, get it outside, tell someone, it would be better. but how do I translate the swirling thoughts in my head into a cry for help?
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